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[30 Nov 2009|07:51pm] |
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he makes me so happy.... <3 <3 <3
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[10 Apr 2009|07:09pm] |
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i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job. i will get this job.
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[18 Feb 2009|01:03am] |
dinner with dana at applebee's tonight..
ended up with over a 100 on my macroecon test with extra credit + curve..
probably a low A on my geology lab quiz...
work is busy but it keeps me out of trouble and i am thankful to have a job and to get there safely on a daily basis.. even driving through downtown atlanta.
here is to hoping i can get enough money to move out soon..
not that i don't love my family but i am 24 in less than a month and truly need to move on..
contemplating CIS/Accounting double major.. cause Noj likes to fill my brain with silly ideas.. although it does make sense when looking at the long run..
and oh yeah! deans list last semester! first semester back in 3 years too! what what!! :)
i'm good and content with being single.. and valentine's was a breeze! thank god!
hm.. other than that..
lots of work. and school. hanging out with dana & co.
things are good. :)
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[07 Feb 2009|12:43pm] |
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last night was awesome! good friends and lots of alcohol and not having to pay for a damn thing! :) everyone made it home safely and fun times were had by all! :)
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[25 Jan 2009|10:30pm] |
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.. i am very thankful that i did not end up in jail last night.. (loooong story.) someone or something was truly looking out for me and although i am upset that someone did go.. i am very glad it wasn't me.
i'm thankful that josh is only inured and didn't get himself killed like the dumbass he can be sometimes. as much as our friendship is love/hate, it was nice talking to him last night from iraq. although the fact that he was doped up on painkillers and i was not quite sober was quite amusing. i hope he gets his issues worked out.
i'm thankful to have a job.. and although it may not pay a ton and i have to drive way too far to get there.. at least i have a job. managed to open and close the store on my own today, as well as sell some on my own when the 'manager' had car issues and decided to leave me at the store alone to finish his shit. (big no, no.. but i handled it great!)
i'm glad to have dana, my best friend and i really hope she starts to feel better. i feel her pain.
i am thankful that some of my recent mistakes have not kicked me in the ass and i have learned from that.
i am so, so glad to be back in school. yes, i am now exhausted all the time.. but it's a feeling of accomplishment that i cannot describe.
i'm glad to have such caring people in my life and am learning to appreciate them and treat them better.. at least i am trying to.
anyway..
that's all.
i don't know.. i've just felt that i've been really lucky these past couple of days and it's made me think about some of the stuff i sometimes take for granted. the end. :)
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[24 Jan 2009|01:55am] |
i let virtual shit hold too much control over my life....
i'm done.
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[16 Jan 2009|04:32am] |
you know..
i spend so much time missing the fuck out of you.
i switch servers.
numbers.
states.
and yet..
you xfer to the same server i am on.. with people i used to know..
i can't escape you.
and i can't escape how i feel. i'm so confused.
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[19 Dec 2008|05:25am] |
my mage is coming along amazingly.. naxx soon!!!! and a new 40 badge heroic trinket tonight!! so awesome!!
final grades.. eeek!!!
emailed to get my old job back today.
i start back monday!
(ignore that.. that was just my wishful thinking about that monday part.)
<3
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[03 Dec 2008|05:53pm] |
i cannot wait to move out of here..
living in this stupid "den" upstairs is driving me nuts.
i never get any sleep.
still can't find a job.
finals are frustrating.
one day at a time.
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[01 May 2008|11:49pm] |
boone has been amazing.
i work all the time.
party a little bit more.
and have met some of the most amazing people.
can't wait to go to california on the 17th and see my love!
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[05 Mar 2008|01:08am] |
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this town has given me more hope than ive had in years.
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[12 Feb 2008|07:54pm] |
so.
i have the keys to the room i will be occupying for the next 4 months. (no idea yet where i will live come august since that room has already been leased.. sigh.)
my signature is on the lease.
acceptance was received weeks ago.
.. and still, i am terrified beyond words.
there are so many things i plan to accomplish in Boone.. (mainly a college degree and LOSING WEIGHT!)
but it's all so intimidating.
i love the idea of change, i just dread the action.
oh geez.
never in a million years would i think that a tiny idea i had almost 6 months ago would turn into an actual reality.
i know it's for the best..
but damnit, it's normal to be scared. (AND SO DAMN EXCITED!)
<3
i just hope i find a job and get some sort of financial aid for school.
it will all work out. :)
NORTH CAROLINA, HERE I COME! :)
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[06 Feb 2008|11:30pm] |
i love the hell out of this song.
sometimes it applies so much to me..
sometimes it's totally irrelevant.
but i love it all the same.
There's blood in my mouth 'cause I've been biting my tongue all week
I keep on talking trash but I never say anything
and the talking leads to touching then the touching leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
And it's bad news, baby I'm bad news
and it's just bad news
I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you
but just being around you offers me another form of relief
when the loneliness leads to bad dreams the bad dreams
lead me to calling you
and I call you and say, come here...
and it's bad news, baby I'm bad news
it's just bad news
'cause you're just damage control
for a walking corpse like me
like you
'cause we'll all be portions for foxes
portions for foxes
there's a pretty young thing in front of you
and she's real pretty and she's real into you
and then she's sleeping inside of you
and the talking leads to touching then the touching leads to sex
and then there is no mystery left
and it's bad news but I don't blame you
I do the same thing, I get lonely too
and you're bad news, my friends tell me to leave you
that you're bad news
you're bad news
I don't care, I like you
I like you.
(rilo kiley - portions for foxes.)
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[18 Jan 2008|11:07pm] |
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i officially hate everything.
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[26 Nov 2007|06:45pm] |
i'm still trying to figure out the point..
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[05 Oct 2007|01:14am] |
I GIVE UP.
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[11 Sep 2007|11:58am] |
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do you ever feel like the whole world is rushing by and all you are doing is running place?
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[08 Sep 2007|09:04am] |
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2 college applications have been submitted..
Probably going to apply a few more places before the weekend is over.
Lately, I've had this overwhelming feeling that I am never goign to be good enough for anyone. And it's getting really frustrating. I'm sure it will pass, but for now the annoyance with certain situations is a little over the top. That's what you get when you actually get your hopes up, I believe.
Went out the other night to a couple of bars in Atlanta and had a freaking BLAST! It was so awesome to be in a new environment.. anything is better than Stockbridge! Granted, going to work on one hour of sleep is NOT my idea of fun.
That's pretty much enough for now I think. I just wish I could read minds. I am seriously one of those people that you have to be blunt with. If you dont' like me, tell me. If you want me to not speak to you, TELL ME. But on the other hand, if you do.. please tell me. I hate making stupid guesses. .. and I hate when ex boyfriends randomly show up at my work.
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[03 Sep 2007|04:20pm] |
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i am 22 years old and way too fucking smart not to be in school right now.
this is going to have to change.
i can stand being alone, but being alone with nothing to look forward to is something i cannot tolerate.
(i think i'm just writing this to pump myself up.. but eh.)
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[01 Sep 2007|12:06am] |
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i've realized that if i expect good things to happen in my life..
i should be the type of person who deserves such things.
so i'm going to need to make some changes.
there's a few things and situations that i cannot fix.
but i'm tired of trying to change everything externally and hope that it all falls into place and i wake up one day content
it's the things on the inside that i need to change.
i really hope i can do it.
and do it on my own.
and i really hope that the people who i want to notice it do.
... i guess all i can do at this point is hope.
i just want to rewind to about a month ago and start over..
.. i've embarassed myself way too much lately. this has got to stop.
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